Imposter Syndrome

My life feels like it's going no where. I don't feel that I have any accomplishments. I swear I thought I was going the right way...

Now

I feel like this is NOT for me.
I only finished 196 and now I don't want to continue on in this field.
I want to..and then I don't...


THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME.

I am really frustrated.
I lied in bed thinking about what am I going to do with the rest of my life.


















I need to get out of here. I need to be somewhere I need to be somewhere else.....


















what is wrong with me....apparently there's a term for how I am feeling.



"Individuals experiencing this syndrome seem unable to internalize their accomplishments. Regardless of what level of success they may have achieved in their chosen field of work or study, or what external proof they may have of their competence, they remain convinced internally that they do not deserve the success they have achieved and are really frauds. Proofs of success are dismissed as luck, timing, or otherwise having deceived others into thinking they were more intelligent and competent than they believe themselves to be. This syndrome is thought to be particularly common among women who are successful in their given careers and is typically associated with academics."- wikipedia



thanks PSYCHOLOGY.





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"Don't worry

be happy...doo doo doo doo doo dooododoodoododoodoo"

I gotta start living by this motto.
I think I spend too many days trying to figure out what to do. I let things simmer, and they burn. This month hasn't been too easy, but thankfully there are those that make life a little better.

I am finding I love my friends more and more each day. One in particular, I am pretty sure He knows who he is. Yeah, grilled cheese sandwiches are BOMB. Grateful to every extent of the word. You do more than you know. You have a beautiful soul. I think you should know that. I am glad you're my friend.....best friend. I know our situation isn't the easiest to explain, but despite what you may think I have a deep love and appreciation for you. THANK YOU. You made me feel better today. I couldn't have asked for more =D.

I wish that she could see what I see.


Do not size yourself up to anyone else. YOU are an AMAZING person. I think you need to start accepting that. No excuses. No But's. Just take it as is. Stop putting yourself DOWN cause then you can't see all the things people do to bring you up. ahem.

Phone works both ways last time I checked.









All night blast! lets get at those telomers

=D

Pale In Comparison

plights of the other man across the way are pale in comparison
to the pain in the silent screams inside my mind awaiting the healing words of a stubborn heart
cursed to the scars of a broken past embedded deep in the soul of a solemn man
who lacks wisdom in the experience of loving one othen than him
though words are a curse to those not well versed in contolling what meant but how said and less expressed in emotions to be able to contain them
yet the mouth that used to spill such perfect words can utter hate at the tip of the tongue the flip of the lip the cut at the "FU" end of the "KUH" person I, you screamed "YOU" seethed with the anger and my heart bleed enough secretly uttering

shut the f up











that sucked o the fuck well