the pieces don't fit anymore

I did it...for myself

I cried my heart out last night
and today

The pain will not go away


and for now

I will endure it

No more relapses

it's time to pick myself up.

for the level headed and understanding that take the hand of a poor person and shoots the skies with smiles ill miss you like the verse to a song that people only know the chorus to
and ill fly by life by knowing your presence was fallible and clench my fists to hold my anger in cause i know that it takes forgiveness to be able to love you
cause here your lies hold no tangible in respect to the fact you hold me in no priority or value
i wish i could embrace the past cause that was you that i saw in my eyes that was once

special

more than anything i want to feel anything other than what i feel right now
given that I could erase my emotions and paint a pale blue sky and whisper to the clouds
hi
his eyes can lie to my face and place stabs that penetrate deep into the subconscious and if love has its alibis he can commit double homocide
within his murmurs
till he can bleed me dry of what im worth to cover up the evidence in his words
poetic bullshitter of my world performs his sonnets while kickin my soul into the dirt
i wanna be so far into the ground that i want to hear the politics of worms shifting through dreams while shitting their thoughts out their ass

so it won't hurt


and maybe ill learn