Game I can't win

we're timing each other
moving
smacking backs of clocks
matching each other's movements
thinking up strategies to check the opponent
mind games meticuliously implemented
so that moves must be carefully planned
till the players are guided by caluculating hands


i chose to build walls in defense of what's most precious to me
and in this romantic game of love your Knights prance L's
till loser across the board is all I see
nervous, I planned to make a come back with my pawns
to seduce you to thinking to move where i want

Like all higher beings

you see right through my fronts


so you take your casualties

as your rooks steal across

I fend for myself in a checkered box

he said

"no mercy in war and love"
and in this kingdowm of black and white
no grey arose


White castles
you stole
in a haste
black bishops
knelt
and prayed

and in my king's square dance

I asked him am I your pawn



or your queen?






"I can't play this game you make"