valentines day

maybe for a scond we can forget how we got into this mess on febuary 14th having roses thorwn over counters cholates smuched into mouths reservations at all the restaurants booked lines in theatres packed with couples jewelry flying of shelves and me and you sitting in the fury of it all

i hate formalities so here goes one and last

will you be my valentine this year just to say so not to do so more like to say we have one and go around not feeling like a loner not having to declare that we were lonley but more like...well we do have each other i mean im not trying to be romantic i mean i might be but its all platonic ...unless its not but that is what i doubt.

sigh

i just want you around.....


whoever you are.

in for the fall

Ive done the first few steps in starting my career.
I am hurt....from the couple few event that have transpired, but I need to remember to not worry and be happy.

I just wonder to myself.....why he...they never really cared about me.


it's ok...

I am used to this...

It's getting harder to just not care.

Do you remember the time...

Dear Miss Miano,

Do you remember in third grade, how you told me to stop draging my feet in the hallways and start looking up as I walked. I remember you putting rulers down my back, and telling me not to sulk. Do you remember that you once told me that you loved my smile, and that I could make friends instead of sitting in the class during lunch time. I do......I was just thinking about you today.

Cause Ill hold my head as high as I can see. I trot to class. I smile every opportunity that I get, and I have more friends than I can put a name to face.


thanks.

love....

so many people use your name in vain





for those who have faith in you sometimes go astray

through all the ups and downs and joys and hurts

i still will choose you first....















new years resolution

blessed

This semester has taught me a lot about the things I keep and I let go....

I am changing my major. I am going to persue something I am really good at. Hopefully I will figure it all out. I will take more risks. I will try not to worry so much. I will get hurt, and move on and learn from it.

I have never laughed so hard, stayed out so late, cried my eyes out, lost sleep, smiled til it hurt, and soaked in every moment of it until now.

Cheers to the new years

being an adult in the life


I have so much to look forward to

and so much i need to leave behind

lets think

maybe for a minute we could shake ourselves into thinking we're not in love any more. MAYBE

we're just as stupid as we want to be. Perhaps so

then if so why do we try to trick ourselves out of this state

why


cause we like it here


even if it hurts.

the pieces don't fit anymore

I did it...for myself

I cried my heart out last night
and today

The pain will not go away


and for now

I will endure it

No more relapses

it's time to pick myself up.