I really wish you could see what ive become today
far reaching star
reaching believing more in me
taking jumps and leaps
finding struggles beautiful
and solutions the hard way
recall the way you say
that you couldnt see me pick myself up
well
i can say
to you the same
i remember when we sang a different tune
told a different story
remember when you would fight for me
in all your glory
find my heart steadily waiting in your hand
my mistake
you were just like every other pussy seeking man
just the same as everyone else
just the same as people who make girls hate themselves
just the same
the only difference
is the approach to my to take away my innocense
forgive me
if you are irrelevant
but now that i think of it you never really mattered to me
...and i never really mattered to you

you never got what you wanted

neither did i.....

Cause for Concern

I am unhappy with myself.


there...no need for denials....or excuses

Tell Her.

"tell her something in my heart needs her more than clowns need the laughter of the crowd"


Were you really ready to fall back then? I know it doesn't matter now.....but not for anything

I always thought you were lying to me.

valentines day

maybe for a scond we can forget how we got into this mess on febuary 14th having roses thorwn over counters cholates smuched into mouths reservations at all the restaurants booked lines in theatres packed with couples jewelry flying of shelves and me and you sitting in the fury of it all

i hate formalities so here goes one and last

will you be my valentine this year just to say so not to do so more like to say we have one and go around not feeling like a loner not having to declare that we were lonley but more like...well we do have each other i mean im not trying to be romantic i mean i might be but its all platonic ...unless its not but that is what i doubt.

sigh

i just want you around.....


whoever you are.

in for the fall

Ive done the first few steps in starting my career.
I am hurt....from the couple few event that have transpired, but I need to remember to not worry and be happy.

I just wonder to myself.....why he...they never really cared about me.


it's ok...

I am used to this...

It's getting harder to just not care.

Do you remember the time...

Dear Miss Miano,

Do you remember in third grade, how you told me to stop draging my feet in the hallways and start looking up as I walked. I remember you putting rulers down my back, and telling me not to sulk. Do you remember that you once told me that you loved my smile, and that I could make friends instead of sitting in the class during lunch time. I do......I was just thinking about you today.

Cause Ill hold my head as high as I can see. I trot to class. I smile every opportunity that I get, and I have more friends than I can put a name to face.


thanks.

love....

so many people use your name in vain





for those who have faith in you sometimes go astray

through all the ups and downs and joys and hurts

i still will choose you first....















new years resolution