whaaattt

I just got reminded...

where the funky did this CD go??

I don't want to sleep on the UK

whatever it is they're doing. They got so much soul over there.

I try to hold on to you

I love J.Rawls.

I've been super busy lately. Firework stand. Work. The ex.

I don't even know where to begin. Its truly over whelming.


but




I met someone. It's not a ....
I met someone...

more like I knew someone...but now I KNOW him. The conversation was just so real.
I am enlightened like never before.

He was full of knowledge. Crazy cool. Confident. Real smooth.

It was...more of a....this cat had his life in order.
It's attractive.....

he got a job
drove a car
independent of himself

He was smart...and he blew me away.

I see him in a whole different light. I wondered why I never talked to him before.

refreshing.

Not jumping into things. Talking to other guys really isn't my steez right now.

However....

I made a new friend.

tell me a story

I promise I'll leave the past where it belongs in exchange for an understanding.


I am not perfect. I did not say I would try to be.

I am hurt beyond what eyes and ears comprehend when you're around me. Believe me I bleed. I just keep to myself and I will smile for the better of whatever it is I am involved with. Do not mistake my going out for craving attention or become that "party girl"...I just can't be at home...I am restless.

relationship wise...right now


I'm tired.


Love is Biblical...not Godly but deeply rooted in faith.

Important enough to tell the greatest stories man has ever heard...about deceit trust, belief, cheating, dying and coming back to life, forgiveness, spite, punishment ect. It had to be translated into thousands of different Languages and spread across the world.


I just want to chill with my bible.



re-gain my faith.

You Can't Please Everyone

I officially did it today.

Day of all days


The Horror..The horror



I have managed to throw off so many people in the SPAN OF ONE WEEKEND.
THE CHERRY ON THE FUCKIN TOP ON THE STUPID ASS ICE CREAM.

Really though.


What can I do.

What can I do?

I got so much love on my side.


"I feel neglected."

HOW CAN I FIX THAT WHAT DO I DO ABOUT THAT. YOU'RE MY BEST FRIEND.
I AM SORRY.


IVE BEEN DOING IT AGAIN...NEGLECTING PEOPLE
IM SORRY.
I WANTED TO EXPAND MY CIRCLE OF FRIENDS.

WHAT HAPPENS? I MOVE AWAY FROM THOSE WHO MATTER.

fuck everything I was doing before...

Ill do good on this.

I promise



I love you guys.



fuccccckkk maaaaan



Why is it when things seems ok that they're not.

"Do you, Laura, do you."

I did.....

and then what happened?


This hurts. More than anything this breaks me. I am always one to not be fazed when shit doesn't work out. This...this really hurts.


Those who matter don't care and those who care don't matter.


To all my FAKE CATS


"Running up on me like you miss me, you catchin the wrong vibe...............I say my piece and then I hush."

-Big Boi




I don't play the field.
I just watch the game.

boom cat.

Bite Your TONGUE

I just got into a fight with my brother/best friend.

This time I am not sugar coating anything.


I am not going to keep protecting you.

It is time to grow up.

I am at peace

Depsite the fact there was a typhoon in the Phillipines
My cousin is garduating and I won't be there for her
My other cousin has finally set up his clothing line
my grandma is sick, and I miss her with everything I got
my sister just broke up with her boyfriend
I've gotten distant from my parents
We're in a state of debt and the only people bringing in income
is my mom and me.
I miss my friends. They're going on to bigger and better things.
I've seen 3 bums on the same corner.
One of them had a baby.

I am at peace.....I just have to keep reminding myself that I can't change the world.

I just have to do my part to help.